omg its depression turtle 🫠

I mean the clinical type.

Makes me feel worse than before…

“Talk Therapy” is a waste of time

I tried Lexapro and Welbutrin now… eh idk all I felt was the placebo effect of “OMG Is this gonna save me?”

But then the novelty dies off and idk if its even doing anything and it takes too long and I just drift off it and not really stick to schedule…

Spare time… maybe

Spare energy? Zero.

My parents in a nutshell

“You can’t change the world, stop worrying about it and just focus on your self”

(They grew up in CCP-China)

Death Note

Breaking Bad

(Don’t need a 3rd one)

I’ll be Kira and Heisenberg at the same time…

Who needs bombs or ricin?

Bruh, this comment is worse than Hitler, Stalin, Mao and the One Child Policy combined

Hey I found the FBI agent tailing me online! 😁

Its much harder to get a cellebrite than just use biometrics

Where do you even get one?

They say your brain finish developing and you become mature at age 25, how mature do you feel?

At least 23 years have passed… was not meant to be read as a birthday post…

Just roll a dice for January 1 to December 31 of 2002, you have a 1/365 chance of guessing right! (but I wont confirm or deny it lol)

“Hey [my name], do you eat cats and dogs for dinner?”

-In Deep Blue Philly nonetheless 🙄

Flashbacks to school years as a Chinese American 😕 (I heard that “joke” too many times to count)

Bruh I’m not revealing my birthday… xD

4 AM in 美国费城 Philadelphia, USA

(Yes I know I’m supposed to be sleeping xD, but cant sleep

and also if I wanna talk to mom, who’s visiting China right now, my night time is their day time so… yeah… kinda wanna be awake at night so I can stay in contact)

So are you abroad or in China? Kinda confused, your comments are kinda inconsistent…

Oh fuck, I still have no idea…

Hopefully I’ll have a plan for this digital era stuff when i become a parant

My parents limited me to like 30min to 1 hour of computer usage when I was like 8 and first had internet access

Then I remember from 12 and onwards, I basically had no restrictions… parent experienced the internet the same time as we did, tech illiterate, so they didn’t know anything about how do parental control stuff…

But even after 12, mom did wanna turn off the wifi at night, especially before I started highschool, but sometimes I wanna stay up and I just sneak downstairs and turn it back on lol

Anyways… probably something like:

ban social media till at least 16, and for Youtube restrict to only a select few educational channels, maybe allow direct messaging with classmates, but I think all messages should get logged and sent to me at least till like 12 (am I too authoritarian?). Game time is limited to 30 minutes max; 1 hour on non-school days, at least till like age 10… then maybe be lenient if thing go well…

Politically extremist sites like 4chan would be part of the blocklist… aint no way I’d let that shit ruin my children.

About the porn stuff… oh yea I heard about it in 5th grade and honestly that was probably wayyy to early for me… it was kinda… shocking…

I’d silently add blocklist for porn until like at least… idk 15 or 16… (is this reasonable? or am I just helicoptering?)… actually idk if I even wanna drop the blocklist till like 18…

Like I’m not gonna get mad if they managed to get access to it anyways… it just feels kinda weird from a parent’s perspective to know your kids have access to those things that young… know what I mean?

Okay idk I feel like I’m gonna end up even more helicopter-y than my parents…

Idk its just… if hypothetically I have childen, I’d really wanna protect them (or at least try to), and then end up overprotective…

Oh yea 0 votes is so sad… I wonder if federation is broken or I got shadowbanned or something…

I think the thing is not about the score, its just an affirmation that, yes, someone in the world did hear you and you didn’t decrease the lifespan of your keyboard for no reason…

But I’d rather have a “read by [X] Users” stat that is neutral, rather than a negative stat like a downvote…

Getting downvoted feels like when you were in K-12 school and the entire class bullying you

@hegar@fedia.io @hengji@lemmy.world

Hope y’all don’t mind me joining in the conversation lol 😅

I was born in 广州 (Parents from 台山), family emigrated when I was around 8.

I kinda wonder what Guangzhou is like nowadays… my mom and older brother is going there visiting right now and I didn’t feel like going cuz of depression and that felt too stressful, and also I wasn’t sure how the firewall thing would work… I’m kinda addicted to stuff like Youtube…

I don’t even have much memories anymore… I wonder if there’s any remnants my “footsteps” in my old apartment.

I remember a memory of having 小笼包 but don’t remember much, but I recently had some in the US tho…

I’ve been to Hong Kong like once when I was so young, barely even old enough remember it.

FYI: Roaming on a foreign carrier completely bypass firewall as far as I know…

Mom is visiting China right now and she told me she can visit Youtube on her phone data, but not from my Aunt’s wifi.

Its $50 USD for a 30-day pass with merely 15GB of data on T-Mobile (slowed to like 256kb unlimited afterwards)… feels kinda expensive… but she mostly just want the unlimited phone calls feature tbh

Basically if you manage to get a sim (or eSim, but that requires importing a phone since phones sold in China do not have eSim capability) from outside China with an active plan, you’re good to go.

FYI: Anti-AI people are a very small minority of the world.

When more “normies” join in, you’ll see a natural shift into being more “pro AI”

Anecdote: A fucking therapist told me to “just use AI to help you write a resume”… 🧐 (don’t remember how I even got to the topic of resumes)

Yeah… turns out not a good fit, for other reasons… (constantly just be like “go outside” and making me feel so unconfortable and I kinda had an existential crisis on whether or not I belonged in this country)