This weird irrational fear when I’m reading religious texts, or hearing religious songs that I may go back or something.
Like I know rationally that that will never happen, but for some reason a part of me is afraid if I listen to to much of it I will fall back into it or something.
It almost feels how “sinning” used to feel when I was religious. Like an irrational fear of doing something “bad”.
The one with the knife?