Purity is the choice of a disciplined, mature, knowing mind and heart. It is not a thing the young can do. Even so, you are the inheritor of your past actions. Even if you choose purity and blamelessness, some will never forgive your past actions. Trust that the wise will see your pure heart.

As a rule, I do not give license for violence under any circumstances, as that license could be mis-interpreted or abused. I will say you cannot justify it, but it can be unavoidable. Trust your judgement.

because they have millions of followers they don’t want to piss off.

If I had a robot body I could see myself sailing out, feeling the solar wind on my face, meeting up with fellow travelers in the remote desolation of space. How many centuries could you spend?